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What I am Not Thankful for vs. What I am

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This week is going to be a little different. I am dealing with a lot of things right now. So first, I need to tell you all something. I’m sorry, but try as I might, I can’t be grateful for this. It’s one word. Cancer. I hate cancer. I wish cancer would go away forever. Why hasn’t God taken it away? I hate cancer because it took away a beautiful pastor, counselor and friend. I hate cancer because it is taking away my father, eating away at his spine, causing him great pain.


I can tell you one thing I don’t hate. I am grateful for those that cancer is taking away from me. As a song I just heard by Ronnie Millsap said, “I wouldn’t have missed it for the world.” Would I spare myself the pain by wishing I had never had my daddy? I’d still be around, even if I didn’t, because biologically, he wasn’t my daddy.

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That’s what makes him so special. He had a choice, and he chose me! Believe me, I can understand adoption, I experienced it. That’s what my daddy did, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. He wasn’t the perfect father growing up, we sure had our hard years, For a long time, I avoided him, tried to find ways not to interact with him. The last few years, I have sought him out, have paid money for plane trips simply to see him. I may be doing it again, because it may be soon time to say goodbye. Yes, seeing my mom is a reason, but he was the big one.


What a turnaround! Because we can talk now. I’m not that timid, shy, and scared little girl, and by being honest, showing who I was, I found out who he is. It’s been a wonderful experience. I’m not ready to say goodbye. But I wouldn’t trade the hurt, just as I wouldn’t trade the fun times I had with my counselor, Tony, or the hard times. I miss tony, and I am going to miss my dad terribly. The pain will be unbearable at times, if not for God. But I will never, ever wish the joy away just to take the pain away.

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